Major update ;)

Since my last post, a lot of changes have happened.
One of the biggest ones is that we moved to Northern California. Though my hubby moved away from our small home town of Garland, Texas after joining the Navy, I never did leave Dallas county.
I can't say that I thought I ever would leave but the mind and heart sometimes changes after you grow older. I suppose I might be a bit backward but I feel the need to take chances now. When you realize that once you reach a certain age, time is shorter than it's ever been here on earth. And the chances of staying grow shorter with each year that passes. I've grown tired alright. Tired of living in fear of the unknown and the undone. I want to push past all the fear in my life. Though it was sad to leave the only place and friends I've known, I was happy to spread my wings out and do some flying. We moved to San Jose, California in August 2014. I found that moving was like grieving. At first I was just sad, at times heartbroken for my old ways and place. I can remember just crying at times in the most inappropriate places. I felt like no body liked me that I was different than them. It didn't help that my hubby was working some insane hours at his new job at Apple and dealing with his own amount of super stress. I tried not to bother him to join my ride of emotions. Next came anger. I'm talking some serious thin skin here. I was like looking for someone to look at me wrong! lol. Traffic rage was becoming an issue. And while in the "anger" period, I learned that people tend to respect Texans here. We can and do come across as well, Christian defensive gun lovers (Sadly after stepping away from Texas, I can see some truth to this view). Anyway, I used that to my advantage. Especially in traffic. Even got a "Texas" magnet for the back of my Jeep. Hey, why not keep them guessing? Shame on me.
Then came some exception of my new surroundings and the people in it. After letting down my guard, I found that some people here were different and some were not. I figured out that life was bigger than I had once thought it to be. That it's not so "them against us" if that makes any sense. For me it really helped stop being so defensive and see how life is beyond my own backyard. People are people no matter where you are. Most work hard and care about their family and community even if political views differ. And I've made some friends. That always helps. To have someone to laugh and share with. I've now got neighbors that I know and like. Who would have known just how wonderful it is to wave at familiar faces while pulling in and out of my driveway? They have all taught me a lot about myself and opened my world up like never before. We too have brought our own Texas contributions here to them. I have found the people here to be very open and excepting to all kinds of people and beliefs. And they have a great way of doing it with respect. I really like that.

Sean's 5th Birthday!

Today was Sean's 5th Birthday! Can't believe he is 5 now. He woke up to some presents that we had left out for him sitting by the fireplace. He slowly woke up and relized what the day was after I asked him how old he was. He rubbed his eyes and said 5! Brother got him a BubbleBee transformer costume. Also got a new supply of playdough with a transformer station, Bubblebee car, Hot Wheels and Hot Wheels truck with changable parts and whole bag of goodies from a visit with Grandma. Also had breakfast at the donut place and dinner at Napoli's. It was a fun busy day today. Happy Birthday Sean. I hope you have a great year being 5! Sleep good and tomorrow can be another day of playing with you new toys :) Love you, Mommy.

First day of school August 22, 2011

Our first day at school.
Julian is now in 3rd grade. He is studies are: Math U See (Gamma), McRuffy Spelling, Reading, Language and Phonics, Beka American History, Cheerful Cursive and for Science the Body Book.

Sean is in 1st grade. His studies are: Math U See (Alpha), Christian Light Education Learning to Read, Language Arts and Beka American History.

Bubby's 7th Birthday party.

Well yesterday was my Bubby's 7th Birthday! He had his party at the Main Event in Plano. Bowling, games, pizza and cake. All of his playgroup came and our neighbors Mason and Simon across the alley. Had a blast. He got a new DS1 and lots of games, a portable basketball hoop. He's getting good at ball :) He is growing up fast. Too fast for me. Love him so much. He is my sunshine, couldn't imagine my life without him in it. Bubby have an awesome 7th year! Love u.

Saying good bye

Had to say good bye to an old dear friend of mine today. Miss you Kuba Scuba.

Great news

Got my 2nd recheck mammogram this morning. The report is good! Doctor's report was that no cancer was found and only dense breast tissue. I am very relieved and very tired. I got the letter say that they had found something on my mammogram that I had a couple of weeks ago. Got it on Saturday on a long Memorial weekend. Made an appt for the next Thursday as soon as I could. Said that there was two areas on my right breast that needed to be checked out with another mammogram and ultrasound. Dr didn't need to do the ultrasound after seeing the films. I've been a grump all week, trying not to worry but it's hard not too. It was a bit confusing. I got the very vague report that said that I needed to have some additional films done and that a copy of the report was sent to my Dr. I called Dr. Kampas and the nurse told me that Dr. Paula had recieved it and already signed it off. I asked what they meant. She said that the film stated that the mammogram on my right breast was "incomplete". So she told me that it was a technical issue and that it was nothing to worry about. But after seeing my films and talking with the Dr at the Breast Center it was NOT a redo and that there was two areas on my films that looked suspicious. Also they were late recieving a Drs order from Dr Kampas's office and I had to wait until their office opened today. Honest, it stinks not trusting anyone with you health. Really makes you rely on God even more since it's all about money now. Sad.
Not sure now what I'm going to do in the future with getting screened for breast cancer. After looking into it, it seems that radiation is not good, Duh. It's about 2 percent increase risk per mammogram. That a 20% increase risk of breast cancer over a 10 year period. That's not sitting well with me. I mean you are using something that is known to cause cancer to diagnose it? We also use it to treat it as well. Something is wrong with this picture. I purposely waited three years to get another mammogram because of that concern. And ended up getting 4 more views to recheck to see if anything was there from the first views! Not sure what I am going to do in the future. I really don't want to end this on a bad note. I'm glad that today's news was good. Thank you Lord.

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Ok, I'm a loser

Well it's been a while. A good long while. It's face book's fault, honest. I've love to hate that thing. I've been motivated to get back on the blog and write. I really don't write it for me or for friends because most don't check on this thing anyway. Again because of face book. The real reason for me writing this is for my boys. I suppose it's some sort of open diary for them to read one day when they are grown. So what's happened since my last post? Uh alot. Lets see.....
We moved in August 2010 after we sold our home after being on the market for 2 months. I've been wanting to get out of there for a long time but hubby wasn't so sure. I could see the gang activity creeping up to our doorstep. Yep, Garland has had the goody chewed out of her. She is done and so was I. Grew up there since I was 4 and it's not even close to the cool little town it once was. Do I miss it? Nope, not at all. We moved to a really cool spot in Rowlett. A one acre lot. The lot is flat, completely square and has a nice 1800 sq ft home in the center. It's all fenced in with a chain link fence. I really like it. It's not fancy and big but it fits us great.
The only downside is the drive for daddy to work and back. Ouch. Los Colinas is a good drive for him.
Pet wise, we still have our Kuba cat though we are in the process of keeping him comfortable. He has lost a great deal of weight in a short time. We suspect Lymphoma but can't confirm it without a biopsy. Something he is in no shape to have. Treatment would be the same anyway. Steroids, Vitamin B injections and Sub Q fluids as needed. The sad truth is that I don't think he will be with us much longer. But as long as he is active and still comfortable I'll keep pushing. So far the treatment is keeping him at the same weight so we will continue. This is not easy for us to let go of him. Had him since he was born, 15 years ago. I mean the moment that he was born from a stray Calico cat that was left at the back door in a box at Lakewood Animal Clinic that I worked at. Fell in love the moment we met. He's excepted every critter and kid we brought into his life, never gave us any trouble at all. He's seen it all since Daddy and I have been together, outlasting all other critters we have had. On another hard note, we lost our pug Marty three weeks ago very suddenly. Broke my heart. We went through some behavioral issues for a while but moved past them and he was my shadow in the house. HGE (Hemorrhagic gastroenteritis) of unknown reason is what we think happened. He got sick and within 12 hours he was gone. Boys seem to be doing ok with it. I asked Bubby since he never seems to ask about Marty since he died. He said that he didn't want to bring it up because it made me sad. Told him that it's ok to be sad, we should be now. I heart that boy.
After moving into the the new house, well really before we got here we got a German Shepherd puppy. Her name is Kako. The plan is for her to patrol the lot. She is a good dog but she is a puppy! Damage and destruction is common for the first three years. Hope we make it. lol She is now 11 months old. Really she is daddy's dog. They seem to have a special understanding with one another. Next is two King Charles puppies, now 13 weeks old. A female named Darla that is tri colored and a male Frampton that is Blenheim. Our plan is to breed them. I've always wanted one but they are a bit pricey. Daddy thought since we now have some property we could manage having them. They are sweet, very friendly. Sometimes too friendly to the point that they forget you and go right past you for someone or something else's affection. Kind of nerves me and makes me think that they are un loyal. I suppose it's some unturned repressed feelings of betrayl from times past :) Anyway they are lovely dogs, soft in nature and in heart. Then daddy brought home a six week old Pug puppy. He got him from the same breeder that we got Marty from. I was afraid that it might be early from us losing Marty but the pup has found a way in my heart. Yes, he's my favorite. Can't really pin a name of the guy yet. I don't want to rush and give him a good fitting name. For now I call him Butch or Duke, Dookie. Bronson might be it but I'm not sure. And I had two hens. I said that I had them. Decided to give them to the gardener that wanted them for the eggs. He also took the million dollar coop that Daddy worked so hard making. We traded him for his work skills.
Julian and T=Bone finished the school year! Bubby went through the year without a hitch. T-Bone had some "bumps" with letter blending and I thought we might have to wait another year but he came through and it now able to read three and four letter words! So T-Bone will be in 1st grade and Bubby will be in the 3rd next year. I'm feeling comfortable as a teacher now. As always glad to be able to home school them.
Bubby lost his first baby teeth in April. Lost both bottom ones at the same time!
I had a birthday in March, I'm now 47. 47? That's nuts.
I'm really planning on posting regular again if I can think of something I forgot I'll post it later. Oh and on another note I have a 2nd mammogram and ultrasound tomorrow morning. Seems that they saw some shadowing on my right breast that they want a better look at. Hoping God keeps me around for a while until I get the boys grown. Honest that is a very heart felt prayer that I have alot. Being 47 and having two boys ages 4 and 6 makes you think about stuff. This whole "mammogram" experience is one of the reasons for me returning back on here. Anyway hope and pray for a good report.